I cant do this anymore

I cant go on like this.Its not alright,im not alright.Its all just bitterness inside.I know self pity's never good and it wont get you anywhere but nights like these just makes you wanna cry in bed.I dont wanna hold on anymore,i dont wanna try,I dont want to keep telling myself to keep running the race anymore when i know im already losing the race.They say youre able to be in control of your emotions but im highly doubting myself these few days.I dont know how to react to anything anymore.
Have i changed?
What has happened to me?
I know im only human but that's the worse excuse you can give yourself for self motivation to improve yourself but right now im really really running low on it.
What is the purpose driven life?

How do i keep on running the race of life?It's difficult but sometimes all you need is some venting,maybe a little bit of tears and self actualization to realise your inner self worth.I'll try.Idk but all i can say now is that im struggling to keep up.

Im sure we've all felt like this in a way or another.
Tonight's my turn.

We'll make it though // the freedom to love.

Well i can have my cake,and eat it too! 

Hello everyone!Wow,its june already huh.Im sorry that im like sixteen days late.Well alot has happened which is why i have been too busy to update,hence neglecting this poor blog of mine.

1. Mid Semester Tests

3-6 June.

One major takeaway: TIME MANAGEMENT IS ESSENTIAL.

No mental block like the previous time,oh thank God.:)

2. Church Camp

7-10 June.

It was at a new location this year, Pullman Putrajaya Lakeside Resort,

Which is near Kuala Lumpur,the capital of Malaysia!

Learnt plenty of new things from the messages and the helpful workshops,

and of course,made new friends,got closer to God,caught up with old friends.

Shopping was actually good,food was good and the experience was unforgettable.

Wished the fam was here with me though,ah well.:)

3. Fast Six + Johor

12 June. 

Caught fast six with the brother,those who have yet to watch it,may i suggest that you 

go watch it soon!Its awesome as usual.:) during the movie I kept going woah and oooh hehehe.Later on in the evening,mom,dad,Auntie Serene,noel and I headed to malaysia for dinner and some shopping at KLS,the new mall located near Holiday Plaza.Good trip even though it was a short one because we havent gone out of the country as an entire family since like 2-3 years ago?Meh.:( #familytimeisalwaysthebest.

4. Shopping and a hilarious one hour shift.

13 June.

Headed to town to work for an hour HAHA.wheee,Claudia was working today whoop!After that went to meet the church girls for shopping for Sam's present and dinner at eighteen chefs wheee ive missed this girls,and eighteen chefs as well!Editor's market after and i bought a pretty floral romper.

5. SHOP YOUR DAY AWAY FRIDAY

14 June.

Went shopping with Vinnie and Cheryl Gogo at bugis street yay!Those of you who thought only ah lian clothing could be found at bugis street think again man,im not even kidding Bugis street actually has pretty good pieces of clothing for way affordable prices and of good quality as well!How do i know?I used to shop at Bugis street pretty often HEHE.:) and yes i do love Bugis street and its one of my fav shopping places:) 

Need i say more? Here's some pictorial evidence whoohoo!:)

Polka dotted dungaree+ Lace babydoll dress+ Turquoise floral top + Red shoes

= All from bugis street.:)

Floral romper on extreme left: Editor's market

See!It aint that bad right.:)

HEHE.I had a great time spent with Shan shan and Gogo!:) Great shopping + Great company = A great friday night spent!!

More shopping trips soon to come.:))

6. Two parties in a day?!

Today!Or yesterday i should say,HEHE.

Headed down to Mana Mana for Sam's surprise party!Met the girls and waited for the birthday girl to arrive before having to leave shortly after because of my grandma's birthday!Sorry bb!:( Grandmama's 82 this year!Hehe but she has the energy of a younger lady and the looks as well!Oh i really do love you grandmama tan.:) Happy birthday to you grandmama <3 and it was my uncle's birthday coincidentally as well!We all wished him over skype!Oh i love technology and how it brings us closer to each other hehe.

Well that pretty much sums up my first half of june!:) One more week left before sem starts again haiya.But i can tell you that next week's gonna be exciting wheee!Cant wait.Till then,

xx.:*