. : 2014

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Lost

I am damn,fucking exhausted.

I thought I would finally be someone's priority after getting into this.For once I opened up my heart again to loving someone.But little did I know that it would end up in me feeling like these a couple of times. I don't know what it is but somehow Im always the one waiting for you.God knows what you've been up to.Every single fucking time.Its the same old cycle.I didn't know loving someone meant that you had to be at a disadvantage,always waiting for a reply of what,maybe one/two sentences?i didnt know I had to stay up almost every night, waiting for a fucking text again from a particular someone and I'll just end up dozing off because for every text,I'll have to stay up waiting for what,half an hour or so?How many times must I tell you that Im your fucking girlfriend,I thought I might've been of at least somewhat importance to you.Everything just seems like a fucking chore to you now huh.And I don't know why I have to patience to even wait for every single message.And even when it's somewhat urgent you don't bother checking.I can honestly say that I treat you like a priority still up to now,every text message of yours still makes me excited to give an instant reply back.But what can I say about yours? I don't know how much longer I can hold on being like this. I never thought I could be taken for granted just like that. It's like you don't treasure me just like how you first did 11 months ago. You say you do but I don't know about your actions because they don't justify your words. If you would rather not communicate with me because you are "lazy to text" / "didn't see your message" / "thought i replied" , I'd rather be happier off alone. I'm tired of being shoved aside after being taken for granted that I will always be here for you because you know I always will. I can't seem to trust your words anymore because I'm just sick and tired of the same routine of anticipating something that will never happen.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Trust

Last paper tomorrow and with all the stress pilling up from everything I just needed a little rant.

Trust issues.

Is it that hard to place trust in someone you have been together with for a long period of time?I know its not hard for me but idk what happened which has made things so fucking hard for me. I am exhausted of you saying that its my surroundings you arent comfortable with but havent you been saying this for a little too long already? I am completely drained out because you always make me sound like I am the one who's always in the wrong and that you are, and forever will be in the right. I dont know whether getting myself into this situation has made me a better person or not. You may be the one who is a better person when you get into this but I dont know if I am. It has bought the worst in me out to the extent that sometimes I dont even know who I am anymore. I feel as if I have lost my own identity. I used to be independent and always the happy one but I feel like I have changed for the worse subconsciously. You have the whole world there for you but sometimes I just feel like I only have myself to rely on. Friendships with other people become distant and I am really sick of it. Im in a mess with my own life. What benefits you may not work out for me. I am tired of showing this facade. And how can you just push me aside and act as if nothing is wrong.

Tomorrow will be a better day I hope.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Countdown.

HOLA FROM WORK AGAIN!

Today i just burned the biggest hole in my pocket.And no its not shopping....

Anyhow, decided to blog about tuesday! Clarence,Shawmann and Sungwoo went off to korea!

On the bus otw to the airport...

Met the rest at the airport and then Clarence and I had Sushi for dinner!

HAHA

Then we took the sky train and met the rest again!

Default face

dont go :(

See you in 15 Days!

Flying off next tuesday hehe

till then,

xx.

Monday, September 15, 2014

Monday Blues.

Hola from work!

Its a monday and im guessing hardly anyone would stop by because like i said, Its a monday HAHA.

Dedicating my entire week to work because I am a penniless soul.

We're halfway through the month!15 Days to UK and a week till my dear Clarence flies off to the land of Kimchi for a getaway.

2 hours till the end of work.I can do this!!

till then,

xx.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

PENANG VISUALS- Day 1 & 2

Hi guys! So about 2 weeks back I had an impromptu short getaway to Penang with my mom!She just decided to go on a short trip , booked the air tickets and hotel a week before and off we went!So I took a HELL load of pictures so I thought it would be better to seperate them into 2 posts.So here goes!

Day one:

Left the house pretty early in the morning at 6am as our flight was at 9. Didnt get much sleep as I only slept at 3 due to last min packing HAHA because for the past few days I was practically working my ass off.

Brother was nice enough to wake up earlier so that he could send us off.nawww

Was raining when we left SG

Landed in Penang International Airport in about 1 hour later.Hoorah!

Took a cab to our hotel and 20 mins later we arrived at Hotel Heliconia!

Hola!

Its a pretty decent hotel and location is good as well. Rooms arent as big as the usual hotels but are just nice.:) We paid about $50 per night? Reasonably priced and the staff were helpful!You might wanna give it a try next time if youre going to Penang :)

After checking in and settling down, we decided to head out to get some lunch!

Found this art piece just opposite our hotel!

Loving how Penang has all these art pieces on walls everywhere!

Quite unlikely to find it back home in Sg unless youre in Haji/Arab street!

Had lunch at a coffee shop which was 5 mins walk away from our hotel.How convenient!I like!

Mom had Prawn noodles which were the BOMB!

As you can see, there are no prawns in this prawn mee but there are fishballs!I guess thats how the people in Penang have their prawn mee.

And I had wanton mee!

(As we go along the days you would be noticing that I am ALWAYS eating wanton mee during the whole trip.Dont ask me why, I also dont know HAHA)

FOOD WAS YUMMY OH GOD HEHE.

So after lunch we decided to roam around the area and did a little shopping for what?

MORE FOOD.

Spot momsie

Look what we found!Another piece of art on the wall

Might as well take a selfie HAHA

I dont know what these were,but they looked really interesting and i decided to snap a picture of it.

Wow wow so fancy macs in penang

Decided to make a fool out of myself with a horse on the wall.

Im overseas,so why not!

Pretty!

After that we went back to our room, took a short nap and went out for dinner!The night stalls were opened but it was POURING when we headed out!!Thankfully, we packed an umbrella beforehand and that was our lifesaver.

Had lor mee for dinner.Wasnt the best but edible :)

Mom had char kwey teow

Which wasnt filling for her we had satay too which was yummy!

The rain was too heavy for us to explore and we were slightly drenched so we decided to head back to the hotel to have an early night. No visuals though because all I did was watch tv, facetime Clarence , bathe and then sleep HAHA.THANK GOD FOR WIFI.

hotel sheets + Your boyfriend's hoodie = Sheer bliss

It was our seventh month on that day btw.

Meh.:(

DAY TWO:

woke up rather early. Mom woke me up at 8am because she forgot to tune her watch or something and it was fast by 4 hours.So she woke me up at 8am thinking that it was 12pm..Until I showed her my phone clock.HAHAH mom pls.

Day two leggo!

Headed to Gurney drive and we decided to be adventurous and take the bus.

Selfie with a random dude behind

LOOK AT HOW LONG THE BUSES TAKE?!

Thank you sbs for making me wait a maximum of 15 mins for the bus at times.

Mother decided to be adventurous again and this time she decided that we should try their road side food.LITERALLY. there were people who made makeshift stalls and food was cooked and being served like this.

You basically take what you want by yourself and then pay!